not easy
2008-04-18 - 12:48 a.m.
i don't know how to put it and i guess maybe it's be easy to call this emo-ness cos it's so much harder to recognize it as reality. but i don't know and i really don't think i'll ever accept one side of the argument. emo, as opposed to reality, if you follow. it's still not too easy to make small talk without being sufficiently inebriated - i generally end up making talk that isn't small ie it really isn't about the weather or where we come from, trust me. but it is alot easier not to pour your heart out, alot easier to have many acquaintances (not the process).
our social links are not nearly as tight as we think they are, and they all have an expiry date. we all want things to be easy, and when things get hard, we may try a little, but we don't try our hardest anymore. can you replace best friends? can you replace true love? seems like no one is so special anymore.
i used to adamantly believe i'd be an awesome mom but haiyo... "baby you're not really that special?" maybe not.
smooch ||arse
