the one thing that i can give
2008-03-30 - 3:17 p.m.
Paddy: A friend of mine, David, died in Amsterdam. He died three months before they introduced the cocktail. David was Jewish. His boyfriend, Singaporean. Now the boyfriend also HIV. So I asked him, I said, you knew he was HIV when you went with him. Why didn't you practise safe sex? And then my friend told me, Paddy, I'm not much to look at you know? I'm not even an average looking person. I work in a pig farm. I am a Hokkien speaker then I met this crazy Ang Moh man, Jewish, who loved me and gave me everything I have today. It is not an unfair exchange. I didn't want him to feel that I want to have precaution because he was sick. I wanted to show him that I have nothing in this world to give him, but I will give him the one thing I can give. So he taught me English, he took me to Europe. He gave me everything, he shared everything. So I want to share my life with him. And it was very sad when he told me this. So I said, in other words, you are willing to give up your life for him. He said, yes. I knew he was sick and it was my choice that I didn't want to practise safe sex. I said, but now he's gone and now you are alone. He said, it doesn't matter. I will join him soon. Then we will be together forever. I said, my God you sound like some fairy tale. I said, this is life you know.
- from sleepless 77.
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