trapped
2008-01-21 - 3:30 p.m.
i spend my mondays looking at modules wondering how to make my timetable better and how i can fly away. but no matter how i re-arrange it, no matter how much patience i force myself to have while rearrange the timetable of my life, it seems that america just cannot fit in. the bigger dreams just don't belong to me.
i don't know what to do.
i'm beginning to tire of asking people for advice, and i am sorry for making people listen to me because i can feel their eyes glaze over because my plans are bigger than i am. and we all know it. now i do. all my life i've always thought that rules can be bended. the ones which i WANTED to bend over for me, i always made them do so. but university is this gigantic dreamcrushing machine which bulldozes all my dreams and chokes me until i awake, spluttering, exhausted from this fight.
smooch ||arse
