was reading this boy's blog, and his current theme appears to be that men should date as women as possible, and women should not think that they are the only one-s in men's lives (am aware of the gazillion grammatical errors in that sentence, but honestly wtf!) a year ago, maybe, his blog was totally innocent and sweet. and he was writing about not becoming a jerk. i don't think he's become one, but that very sweet boy has become lost in a thick facade of macho bravado. i would say: come back, boy but i don't think he will.
i think i sound very unattractive in old posts though. not like i'm very attractive now, but you know, underneath all my big ideas, bigger dreams and pretty dang loud mouth, i think the way i write betrays something very fragile. it is often easier to write things which i don't understand, and are completely random. randomness hides feelings and randomness is cool. real-ness? it's in a league of its own, and you have to be real with style. i don't know how many people can do that. maybe ultragrrrl (yep she's a real blogger) but that's about everyone i can think of.
i read a huge coffeetable book about diana today, which her brother spencer commissioned. or something like that. yep princess diana of buckingham palace, or at least she used to be. erm, i really liked looking at her fashion choices, but i've always had this image of her which wasn't very positive but i guess the picture book was successful. looking at the photos, her body language just seems completely natural and at ease. holding children, old people, dying infants... you can fake a smile a couple of times, but i don't think you can fake grief. the image of her holding a dying pakistani child sticks in my head.
some people are just special, aren't they.
and i will now do a list because lists are dang awesome.
i want MAC lip conditioner cos it's soo awesome
simplybread
taohuey from rochor road!
greenwood ave fish&chips
the frufru dress
crabtree&evelyn handcream
another accessorize scarf cos my sibs got me a totally awesome one
boots from the ralphlauren display
i am such a hopeless piece of shizz. everytime i want to buy something expensive, i'll think to myself - i'll get it as a present for myself. i am seriously my own best santa.
but the frufru dress has been on my lust list for a while.. and now it's on sale. granted, it's not worth the price but it's like, if i were very ugly my papa would still love me right?
yep makes a lot of sense.
psst jo i miss you like a fat kid loves cake. (i'm trying to sound like a rapper.)
err btw i always felt an affinity to amy winehouse (and jojo) cos i thought she had a mole. and black hair and problems, like me. but aiyo, today i realized it was like a random stud on her cheek. i feel so cheated.
btw gwen and doranne are the most awesomest people this week. they gave me a calvin klein thong!! it's very sexy and very purple, i like. except that gwen cautioned me to wear it only on special occasions - meaning on my wedding night. that unfortunately, appears to be something that will occur only either in twenty years' time or as a figment of my dreams.
so here it is, an advertisement!
single 20-year-old libran looking for eligible bachelor to propose after whirlwind 2-week romance and sex on a balinese beach. bikini included. requirement: must love her and be the love of her life. will learn to cook and perform other desirable duties when requirement is fully fulfilled.
honey you cannot afford me
the one who got away
i'd like to take a slow boat to china
the baker
trent!!
lil missdrinkalot
tres bitchy
fuggers
secret wank shed
blood ninja