and the freshies this time are making me speechless in a very bad way.
1. first i had my freshie group mates get annoyed with me because i worked on more slides than all of them combined. and i was online waiting for said groupmate (who was supposed to work on our part) to come online.. which i honestly don't have a problem with. what i have a problem is with the fact that he didn't complete his slides on the time we agreed on... and therefore i had to work on the slides which we were supposed to do together. and because i did practically all our slides, i also had to present most of it.. so i wasn't trying to hog airplay but i had no frigging choice so i don't think anyone has a right to be annoyed with me for doing more than what i was supposed to.
2. the other freshie i'm working with tells me that she is really busy and would like me to read our stuff first. which isn't a lot, but the point is that it's pairwork, we're supposed to go at it together, and she's implying that she won't have the time to read it... so that means i'll read our stuff, and do the project on my own? seriously... wtf.
i don't know if they think i'm a pushover or what.. maybe i should get a nose stud or a tongue stud, whatever you call those things to scare the shizz out of them but arrrrrgggh.
met mao at simplybread@6thave today and she told me that her bro said something v wise - men can have tattoos.. but it ain't so good for women to have one, cos guys will look at you differently.
at first when i first heard it, i agreed. because it's true that most guys, at least local ones will look at you differently and think "wildchild", "lian", some not-so-desirable tag etc.
oh ya before i forget, disclaimer: i think i tend to diss local men alot.. which i feel slightly apologetic about. not because i don't think they have the faults which i point out that they do (an obsession with skinnyness, a taste for meekness, a tendency to be chauvinist or elitist without thinking about how preserving certain advantages result in some very unjustifiable inequalities.. the list goes on). but more because i don't think i've met enough men from other countries to judge local men comparatively. but while i think our local guys are a bit less worldly, interesting and tend to err on the conservative edge, i also think that our local men are more generous and gentlemanly than some of their american/european counterparts, unconventional as that might seem, but once again, that may be because i haven't met enough foreign men to know better. now back to the topic.
which was basically tattoos. which i've sort of been thinking about for a while but i haven't exactly gotten around to doing it because i don't know what design to etch on my body. and i don't know exactly where to etch it so it won't sag. i was thinking of getting my name in thai somewhere, but at this point of time, thai makes me somewhat nauseous.
but the point is that when i heard mao tell me that particular statement, my first reaction was to agree, and to think to myself - one more reason not to do it so that people won't tag me as all those labels. yet thinking about it now, i don't think i would ever like someone who has a problem with a tattoo which i want to get as a form of expression. so why do i care?
i think another reason for getting the tattoo has become a method of emancipation for me. whether it is thai script, or sanskrit or pali or a picture of hello kitty or the cameron star symbol or a tiny heart shape on my wrist (which kate moss also has), it will uniformly mean - i don't give a damn about what you think.
a friend of a friend of mine doesn't detail her sexual exploits on her blog, but writes enough to let us know that she is getting some action. she makes a point - if guys can play around, why can't girls? sex is a form of gratification for me.
hmm i think it's emancipation, but i'm still thinking about it.
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