2007-09-14 - 12:46 a.m.
in this entry i may end up soundin a bit angrier than i feel. and the g button on my laptop is still spoilt and i have to press it very hard.. very damn annoying.
ya very annoying. what else is annoying? that it's nearly one am and i'm not asleep even though i'm tired. that i can't sleep cos there're people talkin in the corridor. that i can't wrap myself in a towel and walk from the bathroom to my room cos there are boys.
that i have to pay fifty bucks to go to something i really don't care about tomorrow. and that i will definitely not have a good time there. i am seriously paying fifty bucks to dress up like bigtitsgirl and cheer for jiam.
that i have to feel apologetic for thinking a bit more macroscopically. that i have to explain why i'm a phantom.
"err ya i'm busy.. no, not with work. trying to travel."
that i have to dress like a person with bigass tits and have next to no idea who she is. yes, this is realllly ANNOYING the fuck out of me.
ya i'm supposed to dress like girl number two. okay, all of them are different versions of this girl called tifa from final fantasy. my table of friends and i are dressing up as characters from final fantasy. i like to play dressup, but i don't like it when i don't really know my character. not that i shld complain honestly, my group has been really great but i mean.. i'm just not really enthusiastic about this thing. it's kind of lame.
the only way i could pull this look off is to have big and saggy boobs like she does. it appears to be the only constant other than the black hair. okay i'm being unfair, she's hot shizz. but the anime picture has disgusting tits.
today was actually such a good day. met the sea people for lunch (hoho) and had a good time with gwen till six. had sn1101e lecture when i had a lot of fun surfing benefit cosmetics. plus i bought mac and clinique cosmetics (YAY to purple eyeliner although it seems a bit clumpy :/ annoyed). not to mention the stuff i bought yesterday... so yesterday was really a pretty good day. i had an alfresco lunch-dinner thing at coffeebean@wheelock. felt so, chic.
back to today. i got hungry while collecting my muay thai boxing gloves (another story for another time) and had to eat my second dinner (and therefore feel fat).
honestly, i think it's stupid to be mean to phantoms. you can't kick them out, most of the time they wouldn't want to stay for the next semester - so why not be civil? !&@*^#$
sort of wanna learn how to play the guitar, but worried about nails.
i must admit i've been pretty good to myself recently. great lunches/dinners, amazing food, really nice places, super company, exciting plans... and being at home makes me feel better somehow. i feel grouchy now, being at hall. i want my air-conditioning.
thai teacher gave me a new thai name, sansanii (: i'll find the thai script sometime. i asked the teacher what it meant... err she doesn't know. hahahah i'll tell you guys when i find out.
jiaxin: "this is bruise, bruise lee."
hahahhaahhaahhahahahahahahahhaha. okay random thing i heard.
err sister, i bought the topshop dress, in green. but wrong size.. argh they ran out of my size ):
want to watch movies! and i really shld meet up with ruilin and nic soon hahaha. sorry girls.. have test on monday, wednesday. thursday end at 8pm. maybe next saturday? or friday afternoon.
have i mentioned recently that i want to make it (big) on my own? no, it doesn't refer to my stomach. actually, have been feeling incredibly embarrassed that i used to dream of becoming a taitai though i don't think it's preposterous for any girl to dream of being pampered. i just feel that it negates many things i think i stand for. oh well. that said, i don't believe in going dutch still. because in a way, if i'm going to be with someone, it's only because that someone takes better care of me than i do. or at least he should want to take care of me. the criterion for whether i end up with him should be about whether he can take care of me better than i can. otherwise, shouldn't i be better alone? think guys these days are such pussies. had someone tell me recently that he thinks i look too hard to tame. he mentioned the cussing, the speak-my-mind-trait and the crazy heels. oh and a friend actually said that XX gets a lot of male attention (and boyfriends) cos she shows men that they can take care of her. PUH-lease. so being weak is good for a girl? oh and listen to this - this guy told me fire-engine red nails are scary. hullo, if you think i am wildchild you haven't met the real spitfires. pussy. and i just speak my mind.. but even then i try to add a pinch of chocolate syrup to sweeten shizz. chocolate syrup, no, not literally, analogy. completely unrelated, but i watched ratatouille the other day, and colette stayed in the kitchen for the longest time as the only woman because in her words, "i'm the toughest here." but err, she still went for the lowlife protagonist with no talent other than for er.. maybe skating. okay well, he's a good person, but so is she. and to add to that, she was strong and decisive and talented, but nooo she had to go with him. women are conditioned to settle for less.
the other day, i accidentally bumped into this tiny girl. she squealed, and her boyfriend shoved me. i stabbed my white-and-gold stilettos right into his foot.
a couple of days ago, i was wrecked by wanderlust... but most of the time, i can fight my own battles, thank you very much.
damn, can't find my grecian stilettos.
